black tongues speak faster than the car can crash

Sat, 11 Mar 2006 06:13:32 GMT

SOMEBODY PLEASE MAKE ME A LAYOUT.
FUCK.

Can You See Me Now?

Sat, 11 Mar 2006 06:12:01 GMT

wow... how the fuck long has it been since i wrot ein this shit?
HOLY CRAP.
well whatever. you'de know what's going on if you have my myspace.
i forgot my password for soooo long haha.
i guess i'll post in here now too.

weeeee

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 01:49:26 GMT

ok well i don't know when/if i'll be on before or after christmas. so i'll just say it now. MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! and all that good holiday stuff. =)

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 00:07:10 GMT

maybe i'll just post a journal when i do get it back...
this is just getting rediculous.

BOOBS

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 03:30:23 GMT

we'll have the internet back sometime this week.
LEAVE ME HAPPY "WELCOME BACK" MESSAGES
or i'll shun you.

dun dun duuuuuuuun

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 01:10:47 GMT

i have my home phone back for now. 858-0159

Quickly

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 23:30:48 GMT

i don't have the internet
i've explained everything on my myspace

ways to get ahold of me:

e-mail = xiemkyittiex@hotmail.com
cell = 870-3619
myspace = beatxmexup

i'll be here and there, don't know how often i'll be on, so pick the best way you think you'll reach me. i love you guys! LEAVE ME MESSAGES WITH LOVE.. peace gnomies.

YEAH BUDDY!

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 02:00:05 GMT

omfg! i have a job! lol.. well i got it on wednsday, but the internet wasn't working here so i couldn't post it anywhere. i worked yesturday and i worked today. haha i work with my mom, and she's my boss LMAO.. no it's cool though. i also work with my aunt cheryl.. and lots of other people. we clean houses. YA THATS RIGHT. hey, i don't care, it's a fucking job. it's full-time too which is excellent. now i can move out =D

other good news: my dad has givin up. he has agree to give my mom a divorce and child support. FUCKING FINALLY. so my mom went bowling and got drunk cuz she was happy lol. now i need to find someone for her to be happy with *hmmmm*

busy fucking weekend though. me and richard have a wedding to attend tomorrow afternoon. his cousin danielle. it's at 3. i have absolutely nothing to wear =)! then sunday we go to thanksgiving at richards moms. and again for thanksgiving on monday at my mom, plus my brothers birthday. then back to work on tuesday.

after only working 2 days, cleaning about 4-5 sometimes more houses a day, and not just regular houses, i mean master bedrooms, 5 bedroom, 4 bathroom, huge kitchen, big rooms with no purpose shit type houses. yea, cleaning services are for rich people. my god there are SO MANY stories i have to tell about these houses lol but i will tell them on tuesday, because i'm so sore and exhausted because the people that live below us now, have a pitbull.. yea... and it barks EVERYTIME the owner leaves, the WHOLE time shes gone, it barks. and do you know what the owner did last night? yea. she left... and do you know at what time? yea.. late, try at around 11, right when i got to bed.. and do you think she came back right away? and do you think that dog stopped barking? NONO, she didn't come back until AFTER I "WOKE UP" AND LEFT FOR WORK.. so that dog barked for about... 8 FUCKING HOURS

Ahhhhhhh

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 14:07:00 GMT

I feel like shit. i have a bad cold which i got from richard.
there is no medicine in this house
because we have no money
so.. i have to suffer this one out with no help :(
it was wierd though
last night i was making tacetty
so i was around the oven and standing a lot
then as i was done and dishing it out on my plate
i felt my ears burning
then i felt like i was gunna puke
so i ran to the bathroom
but running was a bad idea
and as soon as i opened the door,
i collapsed on the ground passed out.
i woke up to richard shaking me lol
ive only passed out once before that
i HATE that feeling.

so i had a job interview at Cinema 1 in White Oaks last wednsday
but i never got a call back
man, having no experience really makes a difference
the only place i could get a job is probably tim hortons
because that's the only plave i've ever worked.
*sigh* i went out to Masonville this weekend too
and handed out a bunch of resumes
see, my mom seems to think it should be easy for me to get a job
but she doesn't understand that it isn't all that easy.
whatever.. i'll find one.

this headache is killing me so i'm gunna go lay down

KITTEN

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 06:00:35 GMT

AWWWWWWWWW
I GOT MY KITTEN!!!
his name.. is... Firetruck
he's so cute!

and here's him and richard lol

FUCK

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 05:31:56 GMT

I NEED A FUCKING JOB

bwah ah ahhh..

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 08:41:28 GMT

so i found out something rather shocking yesturday... i know this happened awhile ago but ya know, i don't watch sesame street anymore. THEY KILLED GROVER! :\.. wtf!@? fuck you guys, i am never gunna let my kid watch that fucking show. so what if they think kids need to learn about death, but they will eventually on their own! they don't need their fucking favorite show, with characters they love, to go ahead and decide that shit for them. how do they know it wont make one of them depressed? huh? HUH? one of em could just be like "OMFG GROVER GOT HIT BY A BUS, THIS IS THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE, I'M GUNNA GO GET HIT BY A BUS AND BE WITH HIM IN HEAAAAAVEN"... i know that's extreme, but kids are unpredictable! i also found out that they kick eyeore(wtfever) off of winnie the pooh because he was "teaching" kids about depression. can anyone see like.. a.. coinsidence in this? or is it just me and i don't know what i'm talking about..? seriously though, couldn't sesame street killed that dog that plays the piano? cuz no one loves or hates him, he's just there. but everyone loved grover... C'MON!

on another note... me and richard went to 7-11 and tina, jake and owen (OF THE BIRTHDAY MASSACRE) were there getting food on their drunken walk home back to tina's. owen just got back from touring with TBM in Germany. so while we were at tina's, we went downstairs and visited the kittens =D man! Firetruck kicks all the other kittens ass's! and he's so adorable haha he like knows when you're watching him so he does something cute hahaaha it's awesome. Cleo was attacking owen's ham sandwich that he bought that he didn't like cuz it tasted like ass. and she attacked jakes nachos. then jake impersinated the rapper lil jon, like dave chapelle does.. WHAT.. WHAT... YEYAW.. lol.

I DON'T WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOOOOL *cries*

...

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 12:17:18 GMT

where the fuck is jamie...

wow

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 04:32:10 GMT

my mom hates my hair.
she said "why do you have to do these things to yourself"
i said because it's my body and i can do what i want, so shut up
she said "you know, people do those things because they aren't happy with themselves. are you trying to tell me youre not happy with yourself?"
LMAO.
gee mom, youre just coming to your own conclusion after 7 piercings, tons of different hair colours, change of wardrobe, and now a fucking undercut?
if i didnt like the way i look
i wouldnt post pictures of me on websites that im on
or go out in public without a paper bag over my entire body.
fuck that.
im happy with the way i look.
the only thing i'd change is my toes.
=D

tragic news

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 05:20:27 GMT

i had a good time last night at the premiere of Intercessor
and then at the after party at Dissent.
but today is just a down day...

i called my mom at around 10 tonight to see how things were
she told me stephanie had just finished calling
and that she knew something i need to know.
stephanie was watching the news when she heard about a friend i know
a friend that i dont talk to often anymore
but a friend that i was in love with, had been with, had adored.
mike fisher was in an accident today
he is in the london hospital i think
where his foot is being amputated.
this guy was... ugh so into biking and skateboarding
he was so totally good at it.
now he only has one foot...
i dont know how he is
im worried beyond belief for him
it breaks my heart to know that someone i know so well has been hurt.
even though i rarely talk to him ever since i moved
it still pains me to hear about such things.

i wrote him an email but i didnt know what to say...

"i heard from my sister, omg mike are you okay?!
all my love mike, i'm so sorry. allie"

thats all i could think of to write!
am i an idiot?!
OF COURSE HE'S NOT ALRIGHT

edit// mike lost his leg 6 inches below his knee, his arm is really fucked up. he was on his bike and a car/truck/somthing smashed into him. kyle thinks hes at home now but no one is sure. this is so much worse then i thought.

oh yea, i forgot

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 21:18:47 GMT

i have a new hair cut =D
tell me what you think pleeeeeeeeeease

iv gotten both that it looks good and that it looks alright.
please be honest.

BIRTH-FUCKING-DAY

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 21:13:35 GMT

yesturday me, jamie, richard, chris and chris went out to dinner at JackAstors.
good food.
we reminised(sp?) about when me and richard first met
and the first thing he ever said to me other than hi
"do you fold or crinkle?"
bahahaha.
then richard went to work and we drank
but i didnt feel good so i didnt really
i think the steak was bad
that and i ate it medium rare but that normally doesnt affect me.

anyways..
tonight me, richard, jamie, chris, james, amanda, and whitey
we're all going to my house for my b-day dinner with my mom
mmmmm tacos *drools*...
then we're coming back here to drink =D
but im gunna drink drink, because its my birthday

oh, but before that, we're going to the stag shop
just because i can go in now
before it would have been just me not able to go in
but now i can! whoore-ah
then maybe ill buy a bingo ticket.
and some cheap porn.
then vote when the time comes.

weird part is, i havent gotten any presents
except from jamie and chris
but it doesnt seem to bother me like it would any other birthday.
i guess once you get to that point, presents are no big deal
i dont see why b-days are a big deal anyways
o0o im one year older
meh... i could do without celebration
but the drinking is fine with me
and im gunna be shit faced =D

im hungry now so i may eat something
then have a shower.
WISH ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAMMIT! =D

...

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 22:07:37 GMT

i have a feeling my birthday is going to be crappy...

"oh no you di'int" snap snap

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 10:14:23 GMT

we just watch maury hahaha
"dont leave me... i cheated with your sister!" was the title of the show..
i had my doctors appointment yesturday
it was for 3
i sat in the fucking waiting room til 4:45
then when i got called in, i had to wait another 15 mins fo rhim to come talk to me.
and i only saw him for 5.
he told me to not eat or drink anything with dairy in it for 2 weeks
then eat or drink something with dairy in it to see if it does anything
then i have to go get a blood test done
then go back to the doctors and get lactose pills
then i can drink chocolate milk whever i want *giddy smile*

7 days til my birthdayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
yayyyyyyyyy
anyone who reads this shoudl send me money for my birthday
cuz then i can buy the pair of bitch boots that i want for $80
iv wanted them for soooooooooooooo long
but no one will have that kind of money
so if everyone sent me money, thad be swell
but i know it wont happen.

i had a crazy dream when i slept for an hour at 3:30 til 4.
i was walking in my old subdivision
and my nose started to bleed
i got to this house where this house family was standing outside
watching me walk by
the dad was saying something to me but i couldnt understand
and i swear it was the family from 7th Heaven, plus 2 other kids.....
it would make since because we were wating that too
stupid tv family and their perfect, happy familyhoodness.. DIE
anyways..
then it turned into james and amandas apartment
and jamie put a sign outside the front that said free sandwichs
so we were all making sandwichs and giving them to people
then i was sitting on the couch with chris
then he started touching my stomache
then my.. *ahem*.. special areas..
but i stopped him and held his hand
then he kissed me on the cheek
and i got up and walked away.
WTF IS WITH MY DREAMS?! DIE DREAMS!!! dammit.

so its 6:10 in the morning, awake on barely any sleep
waiting for richard to come home at 7:30
kind of getting a headache
while having fun killing the many tiny black ants in the kitchen =D
balloon fest is on sunday i guess
so ill probably be chillin out with jamie
and Thornley will be there =) which is cool

August 8th, 7 pm, Galleria Mall
The Interssecor movie premiere (<- movie with music video i'm in)
Director Jacob Windett (<- richards sisters boyfriend)
$15 a ticket, includes aftershow party with Thor, Them's Fightin' Words + others.
All ages.

RAWR

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 04:13:23 GMT

i need a job dammit!
i cut my thumb last night
it bled allll over the lettuce
and my dog licked some off the floor.
i just got home from richs
its amandas birthday but she had to work =(
celebrating this weekend/when everyone gets payed.
we watched Constantine.
that was an interesting movie...
17 days left til my birthday =D!!
ILL BE ABLE TO BUY PORN IN 17 DAYS! OMG!
and bingo tickets.
and i will vote.

ICE CREAM

heh

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 19:36:47 GMT

i got my nose pierced.
ouchies.
no pictures though, somethings wrong with the cam.

SCORE

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 04:48:20 GMT

yay new icon! and new background! i like it, i like it a lot =D
what do you think??? hmm?

so i emailed my probation officer
she said she never told my mom i couldnt move out
yea so.. my mom LIED TO ME
the bitch.
my p.o said that i should make up a proposal to show my mom
just to make her less worried about me
cuz im sure thats all it is.
cuz im her last daughter to leave.
but why hold me back and none of the other ones?
doesnt make sense, and it doesnt seem fair.

i was a mistake bahaha
she told me.
after stephanie was born, my mom wanted her tubes tide
but the hospital stephanie was born at was catholic
so they told her to go somewhere else and do it
she procrastinated, which was a big mistake
because when she went to get it done in a different hospital
she found out she was pregnant with me =)
true story.
but what a thing to let your daughter know
that my own mother didnt intend on giving birth to me.
the bitch.

me, richard, james and amanda went to the mall today
so james could buy some clothes.
GOD HES LIKE A WOMAN, TAKES SOOO LONG
but while he was doin that, me and rich were lookin around in all the like sony stores and radio shack with all their neat gadgets and expensive tvs and such.
then when he went BACK to backstage, me and rich just sat on the bench
he tried to teach me how to gleek
(that spitting thing that isnt really spitting)
man.. its harder then when i learned how to whistle
i cant fuckin get it
hes like "just make your mouth water, bite on your tongue or yawn or something, then push your tongue to the back of your mouth, forcing that thing under your tongue forward"
i was doing it but he was saying im doing it wrong
I WASNT DAMMIT
then i got frustrated and bite on my tongue too hard.
fuckin.. gah.. gahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

james and amanda are kicking drew out of their apartment
because he barely pays any money for rent and eats all their food.
if he asks to move in with richard
im going to say FUCK OFF no im not living with you when im able
go back to your moms house.
end.

/edit
i love my mom. i dont know what im saying.
she was happy she was pregnant again
she just wasnt intending on it happening.
shes supposted me my whole life
and mostly every decision i'v made.
my father on the other hand......
baahha.. i wont get into that.
the bastard! *shakes fist*

do do doooo

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 05:36:48 GMT

just sittin here... at my house...
my computer works much better now =) *is happy*
richard has started his new job
he works 12am to 9am
kinda bummy but he gets paid $11/hr then he gets a raise after 3 months.
ONE YEAR = JULY 14
SO HAPPY =D
we're going out with James and Amanda in between our anniversaries, cuz their ONE YEAR is on JULY 17.
so rich suggested we all go out to the mandarin
iv never double dated before.. hmm

so my mom called richards house at around 9:30
she informed me that my probation officer isnt letting my curfew out later LIKE SHE PROMISED 2 BEFORE because she doesn't want to.
and she says she MIGHT change it when i get a job.
is that like.. a threat?
cuz im gunna be getting a job anyways FUCK HEAD.
so i says to my mom "well then just let me move out now and i wont be so upset"
and my moms like "uhm.. thats something else you wont be happy about"
so i said "what"
mom: your p.o said that you arent allowed to move out until your probation is over.
WHICH IS IN JANUARY NEXT YEAR.
WHICH IS AGAIN THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE OF WHAT SHE HAD PREVIOUSLY TOLD ME.
me: and you said nothing to change her mind?
mom: no, its not my decision.
IT IS HER DECISION, IV BEEN TOLD THAT 5 TIMES NOW
me: *starts to cry with frustration then hungs up and throws the phone*

*sigh* but then richard calmed me down because i had forgotten that nowhere on the sheets that i was given from court does it say that i have to REMAIN resided with my current parent/gaurdian. so fuck that shit =D they can try, i will take it to small claims court, because i dont have to ask to move out when im 18, i am my own parent/gaurdian, which means i can do what i want dammit! so on August 6th, at exactly 12am in the morning, i am exiting my house with all my things and never returning unless for good reason.

mauh ahaha

Sat, 28 May 2005 21:50:55 GMT

so i havent been on here in awhile
kinda forgot i had this thing =P
i had an Owesome may 2-4
relaxed on friday
went to mats party on saturday
went to see star wars 3 on sunday
then to bobbys party the same night
went "tubbing" at richards moms (lol)
then went to see the fireworks at Harris park that werent there =( cuz it was raining.

so next week is a busy week.
but this weekend is boring and i have nothing to do
maggies going to buy me bitch boots so i am happy =)
i only have 3 more anger management classes left
2 more after this tuesday.
then i have to go pick up my bridesmaid dress on wednsday?
its so pretty =)
its pink, suits me well i think.
then saturday of course is the wedding
i have to be wherever at 9 in the morning *angry face*
but im dragging jamie and richard =)
then after the wedding is THE BIRTHDAY MASSACRE
OOOOOOH FUCK YEA!
and i found out that i dont really eve have to stay til 10
i can show up at the dance, say hi and bye to everyone
then leave for THE BIRTHDAY MASSACRE
OOOOOOH FUCK YEA!

is joe coming? joe should come and visit =)
i dont know if kyles going..
jamies coming, kates coming, richards coming..
james is coming, amandas coming, drews coming..
chris is coming, jeremy better not be coming...
ionno who else
but lots of people are coming!
including me
and im so
so
so
so
s
o
excited
about
THE BIRTHDAY MASSACRE
OOOOOOH FUCK YEA!

k im done.

ahh

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 21:37:49 GMT

richard is gone to kindcardin til sunday.
i miss him bunches.
so im in his apartment just checking my email and shit
im hanging out with drew
james and amanda were here but they both went to sleep i guess
im failing 2 classes i guess
i got my report card this morning
im doing excellent in 2, and horrible in 2 haha
im gunna go get my pepsi and watch a movie.